pull through;

meh.

2012-02-03T18:28:00.003+08:00

No, I didn't enter INTEC.
No, I don't know why either.
Yes, I'm angry and it's the reason why I haven't been online but instead, playing Persona 3 non-stop everyday.

Ereena, want to go out?
I'm bored as hell.

Other than that, I have my third and fourth driving lessons this weekend. 'Sup.

drive.

2012-01-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

Esok latihan ke-2 :O
Can I die instead? I feel like dying every time the engine dies when I'm going over the hill in Metro. Baru dalam Metro, kalau kat jalan macam mana HUH?

The first one was Wednesday and I learned how to go over a hill, park and tiga-penjuru something. Heh. Can't wait to pass it and never drive a manual car ever again, kaki kiri lenguh tekan clutch and tangan lenguh pusing stereng macam nak mati. Okay, it wasn't that bad but having your first lesson and having some same-aged-guy sitting behind you and commenting about how bad you are isn't what I had in mind for my first lesson.

Fuh.
Ah and I got my acceptance letter to INTEC UiTM today but I'm not sure if I'm going there since if I take SAM at Taylor's or AUSMAT at Sunway, I don't have to take Physics and instead, I can take Psychology and ESL Studies instead. So I'm really really considering that since Physics is not something I can pass so easily. I just can't understand it to the depth of getting really good marks for it and my mum doesn't mind either since Physics isn't needed in the field of work I'm targeting for. So yea, I'm seriously confused again.

i have short hair :D

2012-01-26T18:05:00.002+08:00

Shorter than probably both of my older brothers' hair.
My fringe is a little bit messed up but it's still acceptable.
:)

running man

2012-01-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

Some of the people I know are starting to watch an awesome super-funny and out-of-your-mind-creative show which is RUNNING MAN :D

Seriously, for those who aren't interested in it, you guys are seriously missing out. This show will never fail to make me laugh, I was actually rolling on the sofa while laughing once because it was insanely funny. I'm proud to be a kipas-susah-mati (as Kaoru would say) Runner. I started around the 30 something episode at ONE HD so I've been watching this for a long time now (since it's already the 62th episode and they only show it once a week).

And here are my absolute favourite Running Man.

Lee Kwang Soo or Kwangvatar.
This unlucky sweetheart is just naturally funny. And he's very timid and weird in his own way. He always gets eliminated first and is always bullied but I seriously can not imagine an RM without him :)

Song Ji Hyo or Mong (Blank) Ji Hyo or Ace Ji Hyo
The only female Running (Wo)Man now. I seriously have every respect for her especially for the episode at China where she took down the other Running Man on her own. So much respect. She's paired up with Gary, another RM, as the Monday Couple who are seriously sweet :D I ship it because it shows that just because the guy is not handsome, does not mean you can't get the girl. With consistent effort, you can.

So yea, I'm pretty much promoting this because they deserve more hallyu waves than they get now. And they deserve more awards for this show. I'm hoping for more fans so that this won't end, at least until I get sick of it (which I don't think I can).

sudden.

2012-01-20T16:24:00.002+08:00

Went to INTEC UiTM today with my dad to register for AUSMAT from 6.30am until 12.oo pm which is why I have a headache right now. It took a long time because we didn't buy the Bank Draft/Cashier Order and went to see a representative from IDP to know more about scholarships and everything (since my dad is paying first and he's trying to search for scholarships).

So I saw the campus and it's okay, I guess. To be honest, I'm scared. Everything is just too sudden and you guys know how I don't want to study there right? But my dad seems so excited and I don't mind starting my studies now (why UiTM???). I don't know how I'm going to cope by myself since I've never exactly left home. I mean, come on. I went to this one week camp and I was a wreck by the end of the week, I missed my parents so badly then. So yea.

And I'm quite scared at the fact that I'm starting quite late (February) and everyone else has gone through orientation so they're getting to know each other now and I'm pretty much the loner now. So I'm hoping that I get really nice housemates and ones that would at least have SOME interest with me so we get along easily. I'm actually worrying about how I'm going to go out when I'll be staying there since I don't have a license yet. Ahh, and I also don't have a laptop so I can't online or communicate with people. And my phone isn't much of a help since it's broken and the battery likes to die faster now.

So, wish me luck.
Seriously.

stuck

2012-01-19T15:49:00.003+08:00

I went out with Ereena, Arish (Ereena's 6-year-old brother) and Annisa to Space U8 last Saturday. We were baby-sitting, in a way, I guess. But I keep seeing him a lot so even though he's a bit fussy (and I don't have any patience with kids. Trust me, I do NOT have patience with kids. Which is why whenever someone wants me to hold a baby, I can't. I lack experience with kids because I was young when my mum had my littlest brother. And I guess my mum was scared that we would bully him or something), I don't mind like I did at first.

Went there and didn't really do much. The seriously have to open new shops and make it more interesting or people will stop coming, for sure. We ate at Danidana Takoyaki and they were playing Running Man where Girls' Generation came :D

I wanted to eat okonomiyaki as well but looking at the size of the takoyaki, I couldn't. The takoyaki were RM4.90 for 4 but for the size, it was worth it. But the taste? Annisa said she tasted better at Tako Tao. I thought it was a bit dense but the octopus inside it was quite good. Then we went to watch The Darkest Hour in 3D and it was so expensive >< The other movies were mostly Malay horror movies or the old ones that have been showing for a month. The movie was okay, I guess. I wished everyone died in the end though, which sounds harsh but I just thought it would be better. Kind of stupid that they only fought 3 of the aliens (?) in the end.

Ahh, and there were only 6 people in the cinema (5 are girls and one 6-year-old guy) which is seriously pathetic xD

What's more interesting is that after the movie ended, we went out through the side front door and we only realize that there was no way out after they closed the door we came through. We were actually stuck inside a small room for around 5 minutes because they forgot to unlock the exit. Do you understand how scary that was? I honestly thought that some alien was going to appear from somewhere and kill us. No joke. I actually started banging on the doors and waving at the CCTV -.- And the staff opened the door, smiling at us like it was funny. Psh.

I am never going there again unless there's a lot of people.

i'm freaking out.

2012-01-16T20:53:00.002+08:00

I didn't realize how many people are taking A-levels and such everywhere :O
I only noticed this because my dad wants me to go for the January intake for AUSMAT. I was quite upset with the idea of it at first because I'm not ready at all. But I'm thinking it would be good for me, I guess. The only thing I'm seriously bothered by is the fact that my dad wants me to apply for the UITM one, the place that I swear not to study, ever.

Why? Because I hate baju kurungs.
Too proud for baju kurung? No.
I find it uncomfortable and boring.

But, I don't know. I'll probably think about it later.
Yea.

update.

2012-01-12T18:04:00.002+08:00

Going to start working next next week at my dad's company so you guys probably won't see me blog as much because the working hours are from 7.30am until 6.00pm (including time to reach KL and back) which is why the pay is a lot. But I'll probably be tired every day. Fuh. Trying to convince myself that it'll be okay and it's experience if I ever need to do office work. It will only be for a month anyway.

Other than that, Ereena, how can you hate the colour yellow? It's pretty :O
I just read some of your past tweets.

Ahh, and apparently I have to bake a 4-layer rainbow cake, go outing with Ereena and go back to kampung on Saturday. Yea. So I'll probably wake up early for the cake. Would be fun since I have never baked 4 layers before. That would be an interesting day.

headache.

2012-01-12T15:26:00.002+08:00

Trying to fill the form for UPU phase 2.
Baru IPTA, dude. Dah menggigil.
Haih.

I don't know what to pick for the 8 program pengajian but bidang, Sastera, Sains Kesihatan and Bahasa. Don't worry, the Sastera is for Social Science and the Bahasa is for TESL.

What about you guys?
Already filled up the form?

gee.

2012-01-11T15:18:00.001+08:00

So much love for this. Sunny, Taeyeon and Jessica's voice are amazing.

Iman.

2012-01-11T14:40:00.006+08:00

(Dude, if you're disturbed with the photo because it's pre-hijab then I'll delete it okay?)

I made some rainbow cupcakes with cream cheese frosting in tribute to Iman, the awesome gay hipster (HIPSTEEEER. I don't see why it's hard to just admit it :p) who is leaving to Australia tomorrow. Okay, this might be short since I'm not good with writing sentimental letters/posts.

Iman, you've been such a good friend to me. To be honest, school would never be fun without you. Thanks for being there for me through thick and thin. I'll miss your hugs so much >.< They gave me comfort when I needed it, when I went through rough times. I wish you the very best of luck there and who knows, if I do study there then we'll meet again someday.

Thank you for everything.

takoyaki

2012-01-11T14:33:00.001+08:00

I just found out that there's a halal takoyaki branch at Space U8 :O
And they have okonomiyaki as well.
And I'm going on Saturday with Ereena (and her little bro) so yaaaaaaay!
Can we go eat there, Ereena? Pleaseee.

driving.

2012-01-09T14:18:00.002+08:00

I drove for the first time today :O
Aren't you guys proud of me? Hee.
It was for Bengkel but the Amali part only and thus, I will receive my L license in a week ! But anyway, yes, it was scary. Thank God Kak Wan (my instructor and the one who handles everything for me) is so nice to me and she was being really patient. Especially when I panicked once because there was a car in front of me and I didn't know how to move fast enough. Hah. I still suck at not crossing my arms when handling with the steering and I have to remember to let go of the clutch slowly (and no, the car did not die on me today :D). Kak Wan told me to go practice with a plate xD

But I'm glad I'm over with my pre-Ls, now on to the 8 hour practice and then JPJ test!

comp test.

2012-01-08T15:29:00.002+08:00

Oh yeaa, I got 46/50 -.-
I want 48! Heh, being picky here. I know that I got one wrong but I wasn't expecting 4. Heh.
Good luck for those who haven't taken it yet. Best advice; do the CD that they give you. It seriously helps.

Moving on.

penat.

2012-01-08T15:18:00.003+08:00

Went to take computer test today and 3 hours of Bengkel. Going to do the Amali tomorrow because it was already full just now, not that I'm complaining since I am exhausted ><

I had to take the computer test from another place which was half an hour away because Metro has some kind of problem and you can't do it there. So I had to go at 7.30 am and didn't have breakfast. Finished at 9.30 am because there was so many people and then straight away bengkel until 1.00 pm.

And I just finished grating around 10 yucas (ubi kayu) since my mum wants to make some bingka. Fuuh. I'm glad I'm finishing pra-L lessons, just want to get this over with.

Oh yeaa, my dad cried twice watching Ombak Rindu xD
This never happens with any other movie.

ombak rindu.

2012-01-06T17:06:00.002+08:00

To be honest, I don't see the hype with this movie. I watched it yesterday because my mum bought the CD since everyone thinks its good. But seriously, it's not that good. I thought it was very typical cerita Melayu. You know, evil mother, love triangle, and all that stuffs. And I didn't like the language. Who talks like that? Seriously? I know it's a movie but come on. People from the country do not talk like that at all.

I'd probably give a 6/10 and mostly because of the beautiful scenery. So yea.
I'm probably just a hater but that's just what I think about this movie.

already for 4 days of 2012

2012-01-04T15:32:00.002+08:00

I feel so dumbstruck. Everything is moving way too fast for me right now. There's just too many things I want to do but I can't because I have to get my license first. I can't get out of my house with a license O__O

And I haven't even taken my computer test yet because the whole family was busy with vacation since we didn't get out before this because my parents sacrificed our holiday for my SPM. Since my little brothers have started school, I'll get to finish my driving lessons (probably), get a job and go out more. I guess I won't start working until half of this month because people are going to enter college (so there will be a lot of outings. Well, maybe?) and Iman is leaving for Australia :(

What about our laser tag and picnic, dude?

But seriously, slow down people! You guys are killing me with your fast planning. I haven't even thought about what 'jurusan' I'm going to take for university. *stabs myself*

last day of 2011

2011-12-31T17:11:00.002+08:00

Amazing.
It's going to be 2012 tomorrow. I haven't really noticed that.
I have to admit, nothing happened much this year because I was busy with exams. There was no time for me to have fun and enjoy much. It was an okay year and I hope next year becomes better for me :)

Anyway, just got back from Sungai Klah Hot Spring after staying there for a night. Since we got a villa there (eceh, it was free because my dad was on a business meeting/family day there), there was a private jacuzzi in it :O

Other than that, the family day was awesome! I was actually at first in Team 2 with all my family members but then, I was kicked out because there was too many members in that team. So I was stuck with Team 1 without anyone that I knew. But our team won anyway, hee. By the end of the activities, I was covered with flour (thanks a lot to my brother) and grass. And I was barefoot. Don't ask why, every one was barefoot and the guys were shirtless because of a game. Heh.

typical boys.

2011-12-27T13:42:00.002+08:00

It angers me when someone younger is trying to hit on me. I'm okay with people who are around a year younger, I don't care but when it's someone who is obviously very young it's not okay. Like I went to TUDM today for a lawatan and these 3 young dudes who seem to be around 14 or 15 (probably younger) were actually trying to hit on me.

I mean, WHAAAT?
I hate it.
It's stupid.
I'm obviously older.
I'm almost unofficially 18 in a week.
What do you immature little kids want?

Heh.

drivers' license.

2011-12-25T15:15:00.003+08:00

Am already starting my driving lessons. Baru 5 hours ceramah and next is ujian komputer. To be honest, I'm dead lazy to read the book that they gave me. I want to finish it as soon as possible, especially since if I pass the test, I can straight away take the bengkel. So I can finish it around 2 to 3 weeks. But I feel like puking just looking at the book. I haven't read in so long even though I used to read every night. At least, read something. But now, I stopped after having to sacrifice books for SPM.

Heh. Anyway, going to treat myself with some mug chocolate cake because it's Christmas :D

must kill oldest brother.

2011-12-25T15:13:00.001+08:00

He's at Universal Studio, Florida with a 4-day ticket.
He went to Wizarding World of Harry Potter.
He drank butterbeer.

This is too much for me.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?
He better get me a robe or a wand.
At least, something.

ehh.

2011-12-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

Reading other peoples' blogs make feel like meh.
Because I know people don't read my blog.
Heh.

Well, I didn't start writing a blog because I wanted people to read it. I did it because it's my way of releasing stress and because I MUST write every day. It's just something I do. Which is why I have at least 2 or 3 thick doodle books every year. I didn't write much this year at school because I was busy with exams and also because I write more at well, Tumblr. I write there more than Blogger nowadays since I'm anonymous there. And also, because people love me there (hah.hah.perasan). Well, not really, but I love it there more because people follow because they actually like who I really am and I appriciate that. I am 100% myself in Blogger. Probably around 60% or so but I can't be honest here. I just can't.

Anyway, I decided to learn You and I dance since, ONE, I don't have any license to go to dance classes. Second, no money. Third, it would be a warm up to start dancing again. Fourth, it's the easiest dance and I really like the dance moves. Fifth, I have got to get a grip if I want to lose 3 kg. So yes, I wish I have more will-power to do it though. I keep slacking and I'm getting more lazier. Haih. The only thing that I'm doing that's actually considered hard is play Cluedo (you know, because you actually have to think logically. And it's not the board one, but the one on Ipad) so yes, I suck.

cute.

2011-12-19T20:21:00.002+08:00

I saw this on Dini's blog and thought I'd share this with everyone.
I was quite shocked to know that she's 19. I guess because people nowadays think that even 21 or 22 is really early to marry, I slowly started to believe in that. I mean, some of my friends are even shocked that I want to get married by 24. But when I saw this video, I just smiled. I couldn't stop smiling especially when she cried. Haha, I think I was starting to cry at that point too. This is one of the sweetest thing I've ever seen.

stuffs.

2011-12-18T22:20:00.002+08:00

Anyway, I watched Mission Impossible 4 yesterday. It was actually a seriously random decision by my dad. Which makes it more weird since my dad doesn't watch movies much. He usually ends up sleeping when we're watching one at home. Remember that I said I went out to eat and I had a headache? Yes, at that time when I had a headache, we were going to watch a movie.

An action movie when I told my dad that I don't watch action movies much, at least not when we have to pay for it, and when I told my dad that I don't like Space U8 because I'll see someone I know. Which I did. But never mind on that since being me, the awkward person, I was avoiding eye contact as much as possible. Heh.

The movie was okay. 6/10 if I had to give a rating since I was yawning a few times. I gave a 6 because of the part at the hotel in Dubai. It really didn't help that I am scared of heights when watching that part. I think that was the only thing that made me went 'whoa' throughout the whole movie.

Other than that, EREEENAAAA :D
Can we do a sleepover and go bowling around next week? I seriously must get out of this house.

frustrated.

2011-12-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

My mum is postponing my driver lessons to next week, again -.-
And my mum told me before I went to sleep yesterday and I ended up sleeping late because I couldn't even think anymore. I've been waiting to get my license for years and it keeps being postponed. I'm actually worrying about a lot of things now.

It doesn't help that some of my old classmates are already applying for universities. One of my friend is actually starting a dance group, and an acquaintance who I didn't even knew could sing is doing gigs. WHY ARE YOU ALL DOING THIS TO ME?

I hate this.

because I feel like posting another video :p

2011-12-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

And because I love how the lighting makes her hair colour the original red colour she dyed before it started fading.

headache.

2011-12-17T21:30:00.003+08:00

I have a headache. Which is why I'm already in bed.
I think it's the first time that I think of food and I actually feel like puking. This is bad.
I think it's because I had a late lunch today and I didn't have much breakfast this morning. And I straight away ate Nasi Goreng Lamb Chop for lunch :O

I know, sounds really heavy right? Because it was. I don't really know why I ordered it. Probably because it was an unfimiliar restaurant and all my other brothers picked that so I just went with it. Bad idea though. I only ate half the lamb chops and a few spoonfuls of rice. What a waste :l

Anyway, listening to this because Megan Lee is an awesome singer, Sungha Jung is an amazingly talented guitar player/composer (and he's quite cute, hee) and I am absolutely smitten by this song.

okay..

2011-12-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

I just found out that Losh passed her driving test. So I'm wondering what the heck am I doing with my life right now. Ami is already working. Annisa is taking driving lessons right now. A lot of people are working. I'm only starting driving lessons next week on Tuesday and I just found out that my dad wants us to go balik kampung next week -.-

I don't know why I'm stressing out. Maybe because I'd rather be doing something productive? But I can't go out until I get my drivers' license because my mum doesn't like driving me to places. Oh and also because I need money. I'm planning only to work in January, not in December because I don't want to just jump-start on working right away. Honestly, the only reason I want to work is for experience and not much for the money. Though a good paycheck would do :)

But seriously though, I'm only thinking of working part-time for a month or so. Because it's not my main priority. My main priority for this break is to do whatever I wanted to do but I couldn't before this. So yea. But it just sucks that everyone's being all independent and I'm at home just starting to bake again.

dare devil.

2011-12-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

Out of my family, me and my oldest brother are the dare devils of the family. I rode every scary ride in Outdoor Genting Theme Park (I have to say, I loved Space Shot and Flying Coaster the best) except that ship thing but only because it wasn't opened yet the last time I've been there, not that it matters since I've rode a lot of rides like that and I absolutely can not wait to get on a scarier one. I was the only one who rode R.C. Racer when we went to Toy Story Land in Hong Kong Disneyland, which sucks because I had no one to accompany me so while in queue. And I'm usually the on who's up for scary rides. This comes from a person who is afraid of heights.

Am I proud? Haha. Noo.
I scream like I'm insane while on the rides but I love the adrenaline rush you get when you're on it.

You see, I was the only one riding R.C. Racer because my two little brothers were too afraid, my dad says that his chest hurts, my mum has high blood pressure and my older brother also feels that his chest will explode whenever we're on a scary ride. And he's 18. Like when we rode this parachute ride in Toy Story Land, it wasn't that scary and I was looking down all the time. It was the kind of ride that went up slowly and goes down really fast. He was actually kicking his legs and holding his chest in mid air because he was seriously scared.

Heh.
I seriously hope that I get to go to Sunway's Dry Park so I can ride the Tomahawk and the ship thing. I've never rode one that went 360 degrees O___O but of course, what frustrates me really really badly is the fact they HAVE to include the effin' Water Park. I bet that they have lost a lot of costumers who only want to go to the dry parks only. It used to cost only RM27 so to make a package of Amusement Park, Wildlife Park and Water Park which cost RM60 (if you show your MyKad) is down-right stupid. They seriously need to have a dry park package -.-. I am still up to go the parks but I don't know if anyone wants to go with me :l

I also made a goal to experience bungee jumping :D
This has to be done before I turn 30. Heh.
Because life is short right? And you should do everything that you want before it ends.

must do.

2011-12-15T22:09:00.001+08:00

Must cut hair short again.
It's getting long again -.-
Too flimsy and makes my neck sweat.
Bah.

2011-12-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

Teal nails.
'Nuff said.

update,

2011-12-15T17:22:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to upload Graduation Day photos but it won't upload -.-
This is my third time as well. Haih.

Anyway, I'm taking a break from 49 Days since I'm very emotional nowadays and I don't want to burst out crying since it's getting more and more depressing. I also found out the ending (since I have no patience whatsoever) and I got more depressed. WHYYYY? Bleh. I find like tearing up just thinking about it. And I'm also listening to happy songs only because I don't think I can handle anything that will make me get all emotional again. I'm listening to this and I'm promoting it since I'm such a big IU stan. Also, because I love the concept of the video and the 'clock' dance. Oh, and the cute little goose following her around.

I'm afraid my heart will be revealed in between my hands,
My heart is overwhelmed, it's sad,
Please wait a bit more and wait for me,
You and I, we can't be right now
I want to push on the clock even more but,
In the future which you will be in
Please call out my name
-You And I (Chorus)

It's still a sad song. Both of her main songs (the other, Good Day) have a happy mood but has sad meanings. But I'm okay unless I think too much of the meanings.

Eh, I'm still too lazy to write about Hong Kong but we went to;

-Guangdong Guest House, Chungking Mansion (where we stayed. Really scary there, later on that)
-Hong Kong Disneyland (two day ticket. HOHO)
-Yau Ma Tei where Temple Street Market, Jade Street and some other markets are there.
-Mong Kok where we went to Tung Choi Market on the second day and Fa Yuen Street, Sai Yeung Choi and Argyle Street afterwards.
-The Peak
-Avenue of Stars
-Kowloon where we went to Kowloon park and checked some kind of public park building for fun
-Etc. (because I seriously can not remember anymore)

That might sound like it's not much, but trust me, that was enough for me. Thank God that my hips don't hurt anymore.

tin sum shoes, hong kong.

2011-12-14T18:26:00.003+08:00

IF this comes out in Google (though I don't think so, but you never know. This is just some useful things for RHS lovers out there, going to Hong Kong), I hope this is really useful to someone because if I knew this, it would save me a lot of time.

Tin Sum Shoes.
5/F, 134-136, Sai Yeung Choi Street, Mong Kok.
(You see that small little corner with the small red board with yellow Chinese writing, it's in there)
This shop is NOT in Argyle Center as stated in some livejournals and some blogs (I don't understand why people say it's in Argyle Center when it's not). I actually went searching for the rocking horse shoes in every shoe shop in Argyle Center for it. The shop is out in the street but you can't see it because it's upstairs. Take the lift (which is an old one, and I was quite freaked out because it was around 11pm), go to level 5 and go down the stairs where you'll go straight to the shoe shop. The uncle selling the shoes doesn't really understand much English but you can just point out what you want and what size. I bought this,

with the price of 180 HKD which is RM73.62 from 189 HKD (I think) or RM77.29 which is waaay cheap if I had bought from Bodyline Japan which cost 41 dollars or RM130 just for the shoes and not with the shipping which cost way more O___O

I went to Argyle Center in December and the only shop selling RHS was G.L.P, I don't know the address but it was quite hidden. They only had black and high RHS at that time, no other colour. I didn't ask the price though.

Oh yes, the shoes I bought, the platforms are made from foam so they're light and easy to walk with. The brand is Montreal.

phone photos of hong kong disneyland :)

2011-12-14T17:12:00.002+08:00

My favourite picture of the whole park :)
And I love the little hint of sunlight at the left side.

Oh, and I absolutely love this one to because the 5 on it , looks amazing in this.

This was the first thing I saw when we went in Banquet Hall to eat.
So pretty :o

The castle lighted up in a few different colours but this one was my favourite since it's the classic Disney castle look :)

There's only a few since we're all too lazy to upload pictures into the computer. Heh.

i wanna drive :l

2011-12-13T21:07:00.000+08:00

My mum's postponing my drivers' license class until next week.
GAH, the anxiety!

depressed.

2011-12-13T19:40:00.002+08:00

Eh, now I feel quite depressed after watching 11 episodes of 49 Days. You see, the lead girl (SPOILERS. But you'll know all of this from the first episode so it doesn't really matter) is in a comma and she can borrow a woman's body to find three pure tears so that she can live again. These 100% pure tears will only come from the person who loves her truly, this excludes her parents or any siblings. It must come from someone who is not related to her at all.

In the drama, she tries to get her old friends to think of an old memory that can make them cry for her but it's not pure tears. It can either be tears of pity, forced tears, or any other kind of tears. But not true pure tears for the fact that they care about that person without any condition.

It makes you think doesn't it? If I were in the same place, will I even get one tear? I'm not significant in other peoples' lives. I haven't done any huge thing in my whole 17 year life. It saddens me to feel like I don't have anyone who loves me 100%. Is that possible?

Haih.

kdramas.

2011-12-13T14:16:00.002+08:00

I chuckled seeing posts from the blogs I follow.
So far, two people that I know and I don't expect to do so are watching kdramas. Let me tell you, kdramas are evil little things that will make you become addicted.

Heh.
Trust me, I've watched quite a lot now.
I'm slowly turning into an otaku also. Right now, I'm watching 49 Days and it.is.AMAZING. I have so much emotions going through me right now. It's quite depressing sometimes and I get angry sometimes that I keep pushing the screen up and down. And I hate how kdramas give you this unrealistic image about a guy in real life. I hate having to remind myself that such things will never ever happen in my life. Oh, I was planning to watch Heartstrings first but since people say that 49 Days is really good, I watched this. And I'm on my 9th episode now, and I only started around 6pm yesterday. It's just so addictive!

I have to say, if you just started watching kdramas, it's Boys Over Flowers for you. Most girls love that, my mum got addicted to dramas because of that show. I thought it was amazing at first too but I've watched it 3 or 4 times and I realize how stupid it really is. It's too underrated. I'm pretty sure it's popular because of the cute guys, this includes You're Beautiful though it's better. My favorites would be Protect the Boss (because it never fails to make me laugh in every episode and because the main actress is kick-ass), Hana Yori Dango, Hana Kimi (if you're up for insane guys) and My Lovely Sam Soon (though this becomes slow after a while).

Planning to watch Flower Boy Ramyun Shop after I'm finished with 49 Days.
Ahh, I'm not updating about my Hong Kong trip since I'm too lazy :D

GAAH.

2011-12-12T15:15:00.002+08:00

I was writing the stuffs that I did on the first day and it was really long and I was almost done. But I only wrote it on the Notepad in the computer but all of a sudden it shut off by itself. Turns out someone turned off the laptop charger so it was out of battery. So because it wasn't saved, I lost everything that I wrote.

SHEEEET.
I probably won't be writing for at least 3 hours.

back :D

2011-12-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

My upper lips and nose are flaking.
My mouth is hurting.
My hips hurt after the second day.
My back hurts after walking so much.
But I'm back from Hong Kong!

It was such an all out travel. I mean, it wasn't even a vacation for me and the family. We walked to almost every where except when it's so far, we ride the MTR. Even so, we'd still be standing up in the MTR since there's so many people. I liked the transport system there because even though there was a lot of car, there was never any traffic and I love the walking from different places. I really liked the weather though we weren't expecting it to be that cold so we had to buy thick coats there. It was around 10-16 celcius once. And to be walking non-stop from around 9am until midnight and doing this for 5 days is tiring.

I'll update later on what I did there but anyway, I HAVE WHITE ROCKING HORSE SHOES. AAAAAAH! So pretty :)

going to hong kong.

2011-12-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

I'm leaving for Hong Kong :)

Still pretty shocked about it. I just can't wait to go buy some rocking horse shoes, bunny ears hoodie and possibly a kigurumi. Yeaa.

These are rocking horse shoes, if you're wondering.
I've always wanted one of them since I've started having a fascination with lolita. They're famous for not having any heels and the rounded fronts where you CAN actually rock them like a rocking horse. And if you're wondering what are kigurumis, they're animal pajamas. Yes. I've become quite a freak for cute Japan things.

Anyway, I'll be back soon so I will be in a hiatus for quite a while.

stuffs.

2011-12-01T14:24:00.003+08:00

Couldn't online yesterday since my parents were using the laptop to Google hotels at Hong Kong since we're going there next Tuesday :D

I couldn't believe it at first since we haven't travel in a long time. And the fact that my dad is going to buy a two-day ticket to Disneyland is just .. unbelievable. I'll cry there. I'm pretty sure of that, especially since my hormones are way imbalance now. So yea. Watching the parade, the shows AND the fireworks? I'll burst out in tears.

Anyway, I'm only going to start taking drivers' license after I get back from HK. So stoked for this since I've been waiting for this since years ago. Oh, and SPM was okay, if you're wondering. I worked hard and I think I did pretty good. I'm seriously scared about my results because it means the world for me to get straight As. I'm hoping to get scholarship and study overseas, so pray for me okay? :)

Been busy today.
Bought two 9 inch cake pans and I'm excited for baking. Woo yeaaah.

freedom

2011-11-30T19:00:00.002+08:00

OH YEAAAAAAAAAAA.
SPM HABIIIIIIIIIIS :D
After 3 weeks of battling with SPM and refraining myself to online and do everything that I like, I am finally free. So you'll probably see me updating a lot after this (maybe though) and I'll probably sleep late tonight so I'm going to blog again tonight. But other than that,

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY EREENA :)
I'm sorry that I didn't answer your calls before this. But anyway, may you have a good birthday today and all your wishes came true. I love you and we have to meet soon because I miss you!

grads.

2011-11-03T15:14:00.002+08:00

GRADUATION TODAAAY :D
Yea.
It was okay.
I was yawning at a lot of parts and my shoes were killing me. Thanks to Nani for the two plasters. Having blisters would have ruined the whole day for me. I'll upload the pictures at Facebook as soon as possible, if I'm not lazy laa.

eep

2011-10-29T19:35:00.002+08:00

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

16 days left. Well, 15 days tomorrow.

I am slowly going insane.

2011-10-23T17:20:00.000+08:00

I hate you.

content.

2011-10-16T17:10:00.002+08:00

This happened yesterday.
WOOOOOOO!
After multiple times of going to CD shops, I finally got this.
And I'm sorry for the ugly photo and my half-face. Heh, I just got back from The Curve at that time and it was around midnight since the traffic jam around there was awful yesterday. Ah, and ignore the insignificant coin there. Heh :D

woooooo!

2011-10-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

I PASSED MY ADD MATHS :o
HOHOHOHO.
Aren't you proud of meeeeeee?

I know, I know. It's not a big deal. I know you guys are getting As and whatever but I've never passed okay? And thanks to my awesome add maths tuition teacher (I speak from the heart, it's not that my add maths school tuition is bad, I just don't understand when she teaches), I finally pass and I feel much more confident in getting A+

I feel so guilty for being online right now actually. I'll make sure I study as much as I can after this since I was out the whole afternoon and also, I just got back from tuition. GAAH, I love Biology <3

Though of course, I still have to improve since a 66 is NOT enough at all. And I have to work extra extra hard for Chemistry since I got the worst marks for that :O

stuffs

2011-10-11T16:27:00.002+08:00

So far, I'm getting more restless.
Every night before I go to sleep, I torture myself if I feel like I haven't studied enough. I'm glad I'm doing this because I actually understand Chemistry. Or at least, the chapters that I've read and done numerous numbers of exercises on. But I haven't done enough yet. I don't think I'll ever feel like I've done enough. I must get straight As. I MUST.

I refuse to simply just study in this country. I refuse to do so.

Anyway, I went to the new library with Ami and Aimi last Thursday. It was quite a shocker for me to know that they closed the old one and replace it with the new one. The new one is in the golf club in Seksyen 13. It's really really modern compared to the old one. I like it but funny, I like the old one better for some reason. Probably because the old library used to be quite and people who went there ACTUALLY studied and not just sit there and act as if the library is a freaking coffee shop. And people don't smell like they've been smoking either. So many bastard teenagers going to library just to gossip. And I love how you didn't have to pay to bring your bag into the old library. I mean, WHAT IS THAT? What kind of rule is that? But it's probably because of the sudden increase of unreliable teenagers coming to the library, I guess.

Oh and I also went to Kelantan for three days for my cousin's engagement.
All I have to say is that everyone seems to stay at home all day long there :O
Seriously, we were searching for a clinic on Saturday and so many clinics were closed by 3 pm. The one we went, the doctor was ready to go home by the time we reached there. Oh and the heat! I mean, Perak is hot too because of how dry it is but Kelantan is even hotter. You'd think it'd be breezy because it's a village right? I wonder what the people even do there? All you can do there is buy stuffs from the market and nothing more.

Anyway, I'm quite lazy today for God knows why reason.
Probably because it's a school day tomorrow -.-

birthday,

2011-10-05T15:58:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday,
HNAR (:

You've been there for me when no one was.
You tolerate my awkwardness.
You've always been patient to me.
You always support me and always make me smile.
I'm grateful to have you.
Thank you for being in my life.

headache.

2011-10-05T15:56:00.002+08:00

Haven't studied today because I have a splitting headache.

Though it seems to disappear after a phone call :p
So I'll probably study after this.

Anyway,
Ain = the most awkward person to talk on the phone with.

october

2011-10-01T14:35:00.003+08:00

September is over :O

Whoaaa. Time is going way way way too fast.

I'm not ready to be 17 officially.

Or 18 next year.

Or take SPM in a month and 14 days :0

hollowed out heart

2011-09-29T16:50:00.003+08:00

LISTEN TO THIS.
I don't care if you don't like Demi but listen to this.
It's amazing and breathtaking and it deserves every recognition it gets.
One of the best songs that she has ever written.
And these;

1. Lightweight
2. Fix A Heart
3. My Love is Like A Star

trials is over

2011-09-29T16:41:00.002+08:00

Fuuuuh.
Relief.
I don't think my brain can take it anymore. I'll start studying again soon. Soon. Heh, don't know when 'soon' is though. Oh sekolah cuti for Form 5 next week :D
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I think I'll bake first. Yes, that's the first thing I'll do when my one-week holiday comes. After I get my Unbroken CD though. My family rarely goes out so I'm just here waiting for the CD with every angst I feel in me. Yep.

Oh, and my trials marks are okay.
I'm not satisfied with Agama because I didn't get A+ :o
(WHYYYYYY?)
I got A for History which is good and I think I can pass Add Maths this time (aren't you just proud of me?) since I only need 28 marks for Paper 2 to pass. But Paper 2 was hard so yea, I'm just hoping really badly right now. And that's it. I'm going to get my Chemistry papers tomorrow so yea, wish me luck for that :)

Unbroken

2011-09-20T14:22:00.000+08:00

Unbroken comes out today O___O
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
MUST. GET. ONE.

GAAAAAH

2011-09-13T15:57:00.002+08:00

I just found out that the 'second trials BM paper' thing is real O__O
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?
All the creative ideas are sucked out of my head.
I'd rather learn facts now please.
Eff this.

TAX???

2011-09-09T18:09:00.001+08:00

TAX? TAX??
What the hell.
I'M TOO YOUNG FOR EFFIN TAXES.
And now they're charging 6% of out of Hotlink credit.
Bangang.
Tak cukup kaya ke?

I should switch to something else then.

raya :)

2011-09-09T16:55:00.002+08:00

Yes, I have an awesome family.
I know.

:)

2011-09-09T16:43:00.002+08:00

Finally, weekends :D
Penaaaat.
And I'll wake up late tomorrow, probably.
Just to refresh.

Anyway, I know it's quite late but
SELAMAT HARI RAYAAAAA.
Hee.
I had quite an awesome raya actually, despite the fact that I had to study while raya. Yes, I actually brought a bag full of books to read. So far I've had BM which was okay, BI was fine, for Maths I'm not sure but for History, Paper 2 was easy though I hated the KBKK questions (I mean, what am I going to write about ekonomi for 6 marks?) but Paper 1 was quite hard.

Just resting for now.
Studying for Agama starts tonight.

exams.

2011-08-25T15:46:00.001+08:00

Ahh, I also haven't updated in a very long time because trials is coming. I think this is the first time I stop using a lot of things. I haven't used my Tumblr like I usual do and I haven't even entered Pottermore. So yea.

Goodbye social life.
Hello wonderful books.

bleh

2011-08-25T15:43:00.003+08:00

It's weird to be hit on.
Especially when you're wearing your school uniform, looking like a dweeb.
Especially when the guy looks like a nerd, not your type (though you don't exactly have a type.
Especially when the guy is a Mydin worker at BJ who you don't know.
Especially when he all of a sudden follows to you the counter and gives you his number on a paper when your mum was somewhere else looking at groceries and such.

I thought guys don't even do that anymore?
Give numbers on their paper and look all hopeful just because you replied his 'Hi' because you were a bit blurr.
-.-

lovatic

2011-08-20T09:48:00.002+08:00

Since it's August 20th here and I'm a proud proud lovatic, I just wanna say
Happy 19th Birthday Demi Lovato (:

Yes, I love her.
I love her to death.
She's my role model and she has saved me in so many ways that you can't even imagine and I love her for that even though I'm just one of the million fans she has and I'm not that significant. This girl has thought me to stay strong in every situation and to not let other people bring me down. She has thought me to love my body the way it is regardless of how people tell me that I'm getting fatter. There are no words to describe on how much I love her.

Unbroken, September 20th.

it's weird.

2011-08-20T09:40:00.002+08:00

It's really weird how I don't feel like it's the 20th day of fasting. Weird.
It feels like it's going way too fast.
WAY WAY TOO FAST.
I don't feel satisfied with all my ibadat and stuff.
Now I'm really really scared.
:o

And trials lagi.
Double :o

sigh

2011-08-10T13:17:00.002+08:00

Pathetic.
Fine, take my friends away.
Annoy the hell out of me.
Bad talk about me behind my back and in front of me.
Just a reminder of what my mum said to me;

Dosa menghasut orang itu lebih banyak dosanya daripada menyakitkan hati seseorang tanpa sengaja.

Did you know that people who 'menghasut' other people can't enter Heaven? I thought you should know that. How many people have you 'hasut' to hate me? How many? Remind yourself of that and count how many sins YOU have.

I pray that you change for your own good.

brother

2011-08-08T15:53:00.002+08:00

This is my eldest brother (:
And he went to US to continue studying there for around 2-3 years last Saturday.
I'll miss having someone to tease and make fun. And I'll definitely miss him for always being there for me and being someone who I can talk to.

Good luck, bro.

2011-08-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

And now I'm the one who seems fake in front of everyone.

:'(

2011-08-05T22:35:00.003+08:00

I miss my old friends.
Annisa, Ereena, Ami and Aimi.
And I don't even get to see Ami and Aimi even though we go to the same school since now we don't have assembly except for Monday and Friday. I miss feeling safe knowing that they would always be there for me. Always.

:(

2011-07-29T18:33:00.001+08:00

Craving pies.
But I'm too lazy to make one.

bake bake

2011-07-27T14:09:00.002+08:00

Already put the butter outside so that it softens a bit (:
Just going to make vanilla cupcakes since Ramadhan is coming and my friends had always wanted me to bake for them and obviously I can't bake after that since I have Trials and then I need to study a lot.

Oh been studying a lot of Maths and Add Maths. I'm doing past year papers because people say that's what you should do because they repeat the same thing but in a different question. I'm getting better in Maths but I'm still working on my Add Maths.

Puhh.

2011-07-23T21:24:00.001+08:00

Goal keeper mcm -.-

Studies.

2011-07-22T20:27:00.002+08:00

I think I should stop Blogging, and SERIOUSLY ignore Tumblr with every might that I have. Yea. God, it's hard. But I should. Must get 9a+.

MUST.
MUST MUST MUST MUST.
But why am I getting so lazy?
I feel like all the As are getting much much further from me.
I should tell my mum to hide the laptop from me.
Yep.

it's amazing

2011-07-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

How much I miss feeling all these flutters.
How much I shriek and get all excited.
How much I blush so hard, I can't stop smiling.

Thank you,
I needed that a lot (:

awkward moments.

2011-07-19T18:19:00.002+08:00

It's funny.
How before this, my mum told me that I SHOULD be telling her about boys and well, you know my *cough* boyfriend. Okay, that's the first time I've said that on my blog and well I'm grown up enough right? I surely did mature after years in high school. Anyway, and when she said that, I got all nervous and awkward and started giggling nervously. I mean, it's weird. Especially since it's a big deal, ESPECIALLY being the only girl in the family so it's a very big deal. To just talk to her normally about it, well it's weird.

But yesterday, after school,
I asked her when she could sort of guess I had one (okay, I'm not going to say that word again. Too much tensed up feelings) and at that time, it was my mum who got all awkward and she didn't answer me until I asked her the third time. Heh.

sigh

2011-07-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how unsignificant I feel in other people's live.
Like it wouldn't change anything if I wasn't even there.
I mean, I do try to make changes in people's lives so they don't regret it in the future. Which is why I helped Aween get out of her shy zone. She used to be so quite in class, I don't remember her talking much and she used to only be friends with Evonia, Jannah and Diyanty. And that was it. But for some reason, being friends with me and then Iman and then Losh, just made her more bubbly and random at some times :)

And I like that feeling of accomplishing something.
And I'm actually trying to let Losh see that the world is not just about career and money, and that people like me who have more artistic point of views or ways (heh) have, well let's face the fact, have happier lives. And I think she sees that now. Considering that she's doubting about her choice of being a bio-technologist which she was always sure about just because her mum thinks so and that she's actually thinking about the things she loves too, well that makes me happy too know too.

But most of the time, I feel unsignificant.
Especially in high school.
I made no change to the school whatsoever.
Okay, I changed IN school. I changed completely and I love myself now. I don't hate myself everyday. And I have loads of friends who have stick with me through years. REAL friends. And I guess my life has changed completely. But it would feel better if I made a change, you know?

penat.

2011-07-17T17:27:00.002+08:00

Penat gila nak mati.
Yea.
Went to Melaka unexpectedly on last Thursday night and stayed at Equatorial Hotel.
Dad had a function there.
Walked almost the whole day at Melaka on Friday.
OH AND WATCHED HARRY POTTER :D
EPIC.

Went home on Saturday evening and straight to seminar.
Then prefects dinner until midnight.
Today, seminar until 4.30pm.

School tomorrow.
Crap.

ponteng :p

2011-07-14T16:54:00.001+08:00

Heh, I'm not going to school tomorrow.
Because I'm going to Melaka since my dad has a business thing there.
So yea.
Oh and I made cupcakes :3

cute

2011-07-13T16:53:00.002+08:00

Before I forget,
congrats to a new couple in my class :p
They are cute together.

:3

2011-07-13T16:48:00.002+08:00

Didn't get PLKN (:
Yes, my prayers have been fulfilled.
Thank you, God.
Oh and I figured out what to wear for prefects' dinner. I'm wearing my mum's tulle-ish black maxi skirt which is really pretty AND it's vintage, so that's a plus. And probably a salmon coloured shirt. I'm a bit worried with wearing a shawl to dinner instead of my usual safe tudung but oh well.

And I can't wait for Demi's Skyscraper video today! (:
Oh and I bought white school shoes so yeaa.

dance.

2011-07-12T16:14:00.003+08:00

Kaotsun is one of the best dancers ever.
She's got so much swag.
And the hoodie part, LIKE A BOSS.
I want to dance like her.
And the fact that she's wearing heels is just, speechless.

Watch you disappear.

2011-07-12T15:08:00.000+08:00

Go on and try to tear me down
I'll be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
(:

haih.

2011-07-12T15:07:00.002+08:00

How is it that people get their PLKN results and here I am, refreshing their webpage every friggin' minute and sms-ing them but not getting a reply?

I'll be rising from the ground, like a skyscraper.

2011-07-12T13:49:00.003+08:00

There are no words on how much I love her.
Cried listening to this.

Skies are crying
I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?
-Skyscraper.

She has thought me so many things in ways that even you can't imagine. She's helped me learn to love myself regardless of everything that I've been through. She's helped a lot of people in so many ways. So don't even dare say anything bad about her.

Heh.

2011-07-11T19:14:00.001+08:00

Buang credit je nak semak PLKN -.-

oh craap.

2011-07-10T17:07:00.000+08:00

http://www.bharian.com.my/bharian/articles/SemakannamaterpilihsertaPLKN2012mulaiesok/Article

Is this true?
OMGAAAAAAAAAAH.

I FINISHED MY ADD MATHS FOLIO. AAAAAAAAAAAAH.

2011-07-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

Yea, caps lock galore. Heh heh.
My hand aches a bit right now.

My folio is only like 19 pages but trust me, it's all jam-packed with information. I AM SO PROUD OF IT :D

My second best folio :)
The first was my PMR History folio. THAT was the best folio ever since it's original and it's not like I could photostat that anywhere, which is what almost every other student did (they pick the most popular buildings and photostat it from the library. I've seen that a lot) but mine was about Pasar Seni and I really wanted to make it an awesome folio and so I got 'Cemerlang' :D

But anyway, I'm hoping to get good marks for this folio because I spend like half a day just to copy everything by hand. I don't really like copy pasting folios just like that, it doesn't give me purpose at all. So I write my own. And my handwriting is sooo pretty in this, MUST get credit for that at least? It's so tidy and I put it on lined paper so I get straight sentences since I'm doing it on a blank A4 paper. And it's super straight and takes a lot of effort okay?

Yea.
So I'mma rest and do my speech essays tomorrow and probably study.
Kaaay.

tired

2011-07-09T17:01:00.002+08:00

I don't ever want to be replacement-mother ever again while it's a school week. NEVER again.
PENAT TAU TAK?

I have to deal with the laundry, giving my chickens and fish food, sometimes water the plants (my house is a jungle. My dad has an obsession with planting, so yea, can you imagine having to water plants ALL around the house. I'm panicking that my mum's lime tree is getting bald O___O), making sure the house is clean, sometimes cook, remind little brothers to solat, balance homework, iron clothes, lipat kain, figure out what to do with loads of leftovers (my brothers are picky eaters), go to tuition AND fast at the same time.

I feel like dying. And on weekends, I have to wake up early and do almost everything again.

And you can imagine living with 4 dudes who trash the house, and malas nak letak baju yang dah lipat dlm almari? HUUUH? And if I don' tell them to pray, they'll wait until the very last minute. Oh and they barely help with all the chores. Feeding the pets and watering the plants are actually their jobs, mainly my older brothers but NOOO, they rather sleep instead. And they take forever to wake up and get ready in the morning.

Penaat.
This is why I haven't done my homework and became very stingy at all teachers who I don't know why but probably has PMS or something and keeps being all bossy about everything (and it's not even one teacher, there's around 3 teachers who keep being all upset for no reason and starts lecturing everyone) and force me to do some stupid essay speech thing which I don't even care about doing because I'm too tired. If THEY want to be all 'I am an adult and I have this really hard life and you don't know what it feels like' then I don't even care about doing their work because I'm having one hard week and so they just have to buzz off because I need to study for my trials.

Rant over.

folio

2011-07-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

Almost done with my Add Maths.
Well not really.
I'm still at Part 3 and I have the further explanations and reflection.
And the introductions and whatnot.
My hand is aching so badly.

sucker punch

2011-07-08T17:01:00.002+08:00

Just watched my Sucker Punch DVD which my mum bought a long time ago but I never got the chance to watch. At first, I was REALLY confused by everything. But then I read the posts on imdb and it's like, MIND BLOWN.

Yea.

If you understand, or at least try to understand what the director was actually trying to say in the movie, you'll just be amazed. Amazed by everything basically. My brother told me that it was crap before this because it didn't made any sense but really, it's awesome :)

A little spoiler.
What people are believing is that Baby Doll isn't really real, she's actually Sweet Pea's guardian angel (Sweet Pea: Everyone has an Angel. A Guardian who watches over us. We can't know what form they'll take One day, Old man, Next day, Little girl.) and from the start, we're already in Sweet Pea's mind.

Yea, that's the only thing I can say :p

cake

2011-07-05T14:57:00.001+08:00

Who has the recipe for the cake today?
MUST.HAVE.RECIPE.
Best cake ever.
Frosting was divineee.

Lisa Karolina Lilian Derman.

2011-07-05T14:40:00.001+08:00

LISAAAAAAAAAAAA :(
I'm going to miss youuuuuu.
And I realize that much more when I hugged you just now.

Eesh.

2011-07-03T20:37:00.003+08:00

I remembered I had this little bump on the inside of my lower lip. It didn't hurt but obviously it was really disturbing since it wouldn't go away. My mum thought it was a ulcer, and so did I and we didn't really do anything until it got to the point where it stayed there for a month. Yea. So I went to the doctor and she didn't even knew what it was. But then she said it was probably an ulcer and so she gave me ulcer medicine.

But the medicine didn't work. For some reason, the more I put the medicine, the more it wouldn't go away. But I thought probably it was working in some ways and I continued to use it. UNTIL it wouldn't got for another month. Yea, that thing was in my mouth for two months, people. TWO MONTHS. Until I stopped using the medicine and it went away after weeks.

NOW, I found out what it's called and it is called a mucocele and it happens when your salivary gland gets blocked. It usually does takes months or weeks to go away.

Seriously, I can trust Google more than doctors.

homework

2011-07-03T15:43:00.002+08:00

My parents went to Paris last night.
And won't be back until around Monday next week and so I am in charge with the laundry, feeding my brothers, making sure the house is not a mess and making sure my brothers 'sembahyang'. Boys, pfft.

Did one chapter of my History notes yesterday and trying to finish it today. Though I just got back from my uncle's wedding. I want to study because I feel so bad for not doing so. Oh and I'm not sure if I'm going to school tomorrow. Yea.

:l

2011-07-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

I miss you.

wondering

2011-07-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

Can we just tiru all the answers of the Add Maths folio from the Internet? :p
Because I have no absolute idea what everything means.
Heh.

run

2011-07-02T15:37:00.001+08:00

Won a medal :D
Well, it's actually thanks to Jannah and the rest of the team. I was actually really worried that we might not win at all because of me since some miscommunication happened and I was only wearing a white t-shirt and a black cardigan while most of them was wearing baju Melayu. But got third for the most creative clothes in the larian 1Malaysia thing.

Yaaaaay, medaaaaal.

ponteng :3

2011-06-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

Didn't go to school today because I need rest, for goodness sake. I don't think I can take facing people at school today anyway because I'm tired by them. Only for a while. I hate how some of my classmates and friends are trying to joke with me when I feel like shit and it's obvious on my face and yet they try to annoy me. I haven't shout at someone for a long time so I don't want to start.

I feel so guilty nowadays because I don't study. It's not that I don't try but I just, I don't know. But anyway, I have brownies in the oven :D

Oh and I ate McDonalds for breakfast today. I love my mum. I told her about how I was craving McDs breakfast because there's that one flyer in our class and I thought she was going to ignore me but then this morning she told my brother to take me there because she was too busy :)

God I love my mummy.
Anyway, I'm okay now. My mood is stable and I'm less tired.

full

2011-06-26T20:37:00.002+08:00

My stomach is happy :D
Yes. Went out to Seoul Garden at Plaza Pantai, KL for lunch because my mum wanted to know how Korean bbq tasted like though I didn't think it was exactly Korean. But it was good, because it's actually a buffet where the have trays of raw marinated meat and stuffs. And you have a griller and a steamboat-ish thing in the middle of the table so you can grill you own meat. Sooo awesome. There was also kimchi and it tasted really strong of chilli powder but it was okay. I ate so much ice cream too there, my stomach hurts.

And then I went to Lisa's farewell party. Lisa looks soo pretty with make up :3
Food was awesome too. But the best part is watching movies with the whole lot, they are so random that it's just way fun.

Anyway, I'm sleepy and I'm supposed to study Sejarah because I haven't focused on school for a week because of sport's day so I guess I should. But I don't wanna :O

love

2011-06-25T15:34:00.002+08:00

I freaking love Mars.
oh and got second for perbarisan (:
I really couldn't believe that because I thought we were going to end up last. But I love Mars' spirit and how we always cheer for other people and cheer even when we don't win. Got third for sport's day but I don't really mind for some reason, I'm just happy that I've been in Mars for 5 years now.

eff.

2011-06-24T20:40:00.002+08:00

I am pretty much pissed with Mars marching group.
But whatever.
All I can say is the why in the world do I even bother?
Please bare with me that I am not in the mood and I am refraining myself from using loads of swear words because that's not the person I am in Blogger or Facebook. Only in Tumblr, which I will go on a rant later.

But really, sucks that I even considered going into marching since I've been busting my ass for an effing WHOLE WEEK and yet most of the guys in marching don't even have rhythm. Really, people? REALLY? Don't you bunch of asses have ANY sense of rhythm or even an effing voice? It's amazing how I scream a lot for cheering just for fun AND managed to get a fever and a sore throat, and STILL be the few people who would actually march with a loud voice. Bullcrap.

Anyway,
I'm trying to not to think much about it because it will turn out to be a full on rant. Especially on how I wasted 4 effing hours at the stadium today, but let's not get into that. OH, and if you dare to even talk to me about how badly our position now or on how good is you, I swear to God I will scrape your eyes off. I am not kidding, I feel like b-slapping anyone right now.

Thank God I don't have high school anymore after this.

penat.

2011-06-20T18:46:00.002+08:00

Saturday, marching practice and balik kampung.
Also, waterfall at Lata Kinjang (:

Sunday, went to Burmese pool (it's basically a river) and cousin's house.
Reached home around 8pm.

Monday, school.
Marching practice.

Esok pun ada :(
Penat laaaa, kaki sakit.

weekend

2011-06-17T17:27:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG.
It's Friday (:
And school's over for two days.
Yes, I hate school that much. Though I have to go there tomorrow for Mars stuffs and I have to wake up at 8, yeah 8 in the morning. Yeah, I guess that's when people usually wake up but not me. Especially since almost everyone in the house wakes up at 9 or 10 and then we watch tv together until around 11 in the morning. THEN, I'll shower. Heh, yeah :D

But I don't really mind that much since it's the last year at school and I'm just going to do stuffs that I never really cared to do before this.

Yea. Anyway, I'm super sleepy but I don't want to sleep since I hate sleeping on afternoons. Oh well.